<![CDATA[AMY GUTH - Home]]>Mon, 07 Oct 2019 10:49:56 -0500Weebly<![CDATA[I'm back, I guess, so fuck you?]]>Fri, 09 Aug 2019 05:00:00 GMThttp://amyguth.com/home/im-back-i-guess-so-fuck-youMy site, that I had maintained in some form or another since about 2006, was hacked to smithereens. The comeback site is decidedly minimalist, for good reason.
Yeah, so, despite having a dedicated person allegedly enthusiastic about watching my six online and keeping my website chugging along no matter what subject matter I took on, my site was demolished in a coordinated high-volume "incident" and has been dormant for a year-- partially because it took me a hot minute to accept I was betrayed af by an associate who claimed to want to protect me and my online interests, another hot minute to accept that 12+ years of content was completely gone, and yet another to accept that the cloud backup that aforementioned person assured me was safe was also gone. Tales of journalism jobs, adventures of writing and selling my book, the chronicles of my book tour, and-- oh irony of ironies-- even updates about my documentary project about online harassment and abuse--- all of it gone. To say I was crestfallen is an understatement.
A few cached pages and some mercy from InternetArchive helped me slowly copy-paste and recoup some of the content, which took for-fucking-ever, so it's not totally gone, but everything else certainly is.

How did that happen?
The most charitable explanation is that the person who had so enthusiastically guarded the site simply neglected it and chose not to keep it protected as he claimed, but as the pieces have come together more and more, and as a few helpful people have gathered some breadcrumbs for me to help piece it all together, it's hard not to believe it wasn't more ill-intentioned. Which sucks, because I don't want to walk around thinking terrible shit like that, nor do I want to believe that I got hosed. But, here we are. Also, it doesn't matter because I can't do shit about it, so I chose to not think much about it and just look forward, tbh.

So, what now?
It's been a surprisingly difficult climb back to this step. But, I'm moving forward because I miss blogging. Shit, I blogged for 12 fucking years and suddenly the outlet is just gone? Fuck that. I didn't think it would take a year-plus, but, again, here we are. Copy-paste, tweak this, adjust that...

And, that beautiful design I had on the old site? Eh, who needs it. I'm flying simpler now. I have no choice, really, knowing that anything in our digital lives can be taken away from us at a moment's notice. So, I'm keeping it simple so I can recreate it all again without much heartache the next time.

Yeah, I have to assume there will be a next time. Even in the last year, the world has become an increasingly hostile place for all women, so... I'm into the idea of packing light in my digital life so I can help myself bounce back again and again and never get knocked down completely.

Anyway, welcome back. I say that to myself as much as to any of you who ever read my blog before.